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Question: For other methadone maintenance treatment patients!?
(Posted by: Lissa on 2011-09-30 10:46:12)
I'm a recovering Opiate addict that has been on 100mg of methadone a day for almost 6 months now. My cravings for opiates have diminished drastically as they should, however, for the last month or so, totally out of the blue, I have been having the most intense cravings for crystal meth. I was never even into ice that hard.. I did it for about 3months some 8 years ago, so, WTF? is this normal for methadone patients? I did love Meth, but there's something about the drug that scares the hell out of me and I told myself I'd never do it again. (then again, we addicts know how those self- proclaimed promises go....lol) but while I'm sitting here thinking "damn, I want some shit baaaaaddd! " I'm also sitting here thinking "Damn...battery acid? Drain cleaner? Lighter fluid? Shit, I'll never touch it again! " it's almost as if Satan is sitting on one shoulder and God is sitting on the other, both tryna pull me in their direction. so, I guess my questions are, #1, is this normal for methadone patiets to suddenly crave other drugs that they normally didn't use or put much thought into? And #2, what do I do? I'm getting closer and closer to using every single day, and I want to prevent that. Aside from the cravings, I still know deep down that I don't want to use, but, us addicts know that when it comes down to it, we really are powerless... I'm going to crack and give in eventually if I don't figure something out sooner rather than later. Thank you in advance for any help and support you can give me. Feel free to message me on Yahoo! Messenger... You should be able to see my screen name, if not, it's Hailissa613. I'm signed on 24/ 7 on my iPhone. Thanks again! |
