Drug Abuse: Methadone Symptoms & Side Effects

Question: What should i do about my drug abuse?

(Posted by: Abby on 2010-06-27 18:27:32)

Ok, so I just graduated high school at the top of my class. I made really good grades, did well in sports, won tons of awards blah blah blah. Basically, If everyone didn't know that I abused drugs on a daily basis, no one would suspect anything because it doesn't affect my life in a public way. Its a little strange that I abuse substances so frequently because I have absolutely no family history of substance abuse and my two older brothers were golden children who never even drank in high school and only drank in college in party situations. However, I unquestionably have a substance abuse problem. I smoke weed everyday, usually multiple times. I drink close to everyday, probably 4- 5 times a week (not always with my friends). I do cocaine fairly regularly. I literally have to take Adderall if I have a lot of school work I need to do (during the school year about once a week). And I mix other drugs in with those occasionally too. While my abuse started out with partying, I now do drugs or drink all the time (before school, before work, before any time I have to spend with my family and of course at parties). My parents really don't know that I have a problem, they know I'm a little wild but only suspect me of drinking occasionally. The problem is I would never ask my parents to send me to rehab plus I'm going to the University of Virginia in about a month. What I'm most scared about is that I will go absolutely out of control in college where substances are even more present than they are in my life now. UVA is pretty well known for alcohol, marijuana and most notably cocaine. I know I'm going to end up screwing my life up but I just can't stop. I know I have a lot of things that could be worked out if I saw a therapist but I don't know how I would do that either. I pretty much feel stuck and I don't know where to turn anymore. Oh, I also wanted to add that I'm not an addict(yet). The problem isn't that I would suffer withdrawals because not using a particular substance doesn't really affect me at all because I switch up the drugs that I abuse. I know if I continue on this path I'm going to have alot of problems but I don't have any fun when I'm not high on something. Life without substances seems so much more strenuous and boring and I've abused drugs since I was 12 or 13. I can't even imagine being sober at college and I honestly don't really think that thats an option. I just want to be able to drink socially and moderately but it seems so crazy and unrealistic to me.

Posted by: willy wom bat on 2010-06-27, 18:40:48

Well you don't need my advice because your quite Intelligent i think or should i say you know what the score is on your problems and the appropriate action to take and if not what the end result will be.

Posted by: Otto Skorzeny on 2010-06-27, 18:29:02

Stop whining and enjoy it. UVA has a killer Greek scene - worry about getting clean after college, like the rest of us did.

Posted by: Jared T on 2010-06-27, 18:31:26

God will always be there for us if we let him. We have to accept Jesus as our personal savior in this life. Jesus is the way. If it's ok with you could i speak to you one on one about your problems. Just click on my name and email me.

Posted by: MelissaT on 2010-06-27, 18:42:31

You have still a good mind and good health. Make the most of it. You know the consequences of not doing something about it. It is time to swallow some pride and to get help before it is too late.

Posted by: Jennifer E on 2010-06-28, 09:46:57

It's time to prioritize your health and future. You should talk to people in support groups or who have completed treatment programs as they can relate to what you're going through. It never hurts to give something else a try (then what you're used to). Wishing you the best of luck.

Posted by: Dane on 2010-06-29, 01:16:05

I was literally in the same situation last year and when i got to college i found the every drug i wanted plus i had money. a month later i was on 15 lorcet tens a day along with many many benzos mixed with speed. i ended up overdosing on heroin in my dorm and there went my career at that university. i would say quit now if you think you have a problem because the longer you go the harder it is to quit and stay quit